Another of my shortest prayers.
Stepping into the unknown…
Trying to figure out what is “right” or which way to go…
Wondering if my spirit is here, alone, maybe forgotten by a too-busy God …
Worrying that maybe there really is nothing more than this-here, and this-now, because if that is so, then what does this-here-now all mean?
I turn back to a small passage in the middle of Psalm 27, of the Psalmist seeking an intimate, personal connection with God:
Take heed, Oh LORD
when I call:
have mercy and hear me.
You speak in my heart and say,
“Seek my face.”
Your face – LORD – will I seek.
What does that mean to you: to see into the face of God?
Beyond the spiritual moment of seeing some entity or some bright light that we fantasize to be what Ywwh looks like, do we look at a field of growing vegetables and see God? Water rushing down a fast river and polishing rocks smooth? Standing back and watching a single moment of happiness between two people? The mottled blue and red light through cathedral windows falling on a cool stone floor?
Is the face of God in all that (and more,) and do we recognize it when it comes?
Lots of questions and not many answers. But one prayer follows my emotions and as I step into a new unknown, or I feel great sadness, or intense happiness, and when I feel great physical pain, my words are:
show me your face.
Open my eyes that I might see.
Keep the faith!